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I almost ended my life tonight. Hard to believe, I know. I just couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't listen to another moment of mother's chattering about my future. I felt like I was trapped in a room and all the walls were closing in on me. I even went as far as to climb over the rail of the back of the ship. I might have done it had someone not come along.
Jack Dawson.
Just his name makes me shiver. A first class man, gorgeous no less and a free spirit to boot. He convinced me to come back over, he saved my life and then, when the Master At Arms ws about to arrest me for mugging him, defended my honour and practically told the old man to go to hell.
What am I supposed to make of that?
I felt an instant attraction when I saw him and at first it was just physical. But then, after the things he said and did and his actions, it went above that. I'm developing feelings for this man. For this man who is unattainable to me... completely unattainable. He's in first class for God's sake!
This is not good. I'm setting myself up for disapointment. I cannot fall for Jack Dawson. Who knows if I'll even ever see him again.
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